Update

Since last we met I spent seven days in the hospital. They said I was really in bad shape and the surgeons followed me right through the last day. I left the hospital much better than when I entered. That's the name of the game. I also met and found many friends, doctors, nurses and aides. It was good to go home, but the stay was not all that bad.

Chloe continues to keep my body and soul together. Not an easy job. Immediately I'm going through my withdrawals of night sweats, nightmares and depression due to being off my cancer pill. I go 27 days on and 7 days off. Every cycle is hell as I withdraw. There is disagreement about what we should do. If anything! It keeps me in touch with those suffering from the pill industry, but I would not be alive without them.

Laura and others were happy to have me return home. I've managed to get out of my bed every day since my return. I'm going to try and stay active and try to develop some muscles that I haven't used in quite a while. Perhaps I can even make it just a little easier on Chloe. That can make a difference.

I feel very blah right now and I think that's exactly what I'm putting on paper, blah and plenty of it. I don't know why I should subject you to how I feel. I'll give it a few more minutes and then give up the ghost. I'm watching Last Comedian Standing as I labor through this blog. I can't tell who more is in need me or them. I can't believe they are so bad, but I have a great deal of respect for comedy, but it's not here tonight.

Please keep me in your thoughts as I work through a few things. I know God has kept me around to make a contribution and pray I'll find out exactly what that is. I'm excited about the possibilities, but anxious about getting started.

The Comedy Club is now starting to go before the audience. I think it’s going to be a slaughter house. Duck folks the bricks are on their way or they should be. I don't like the way they have this laid out and I think it’s doomed before getting started. I'm going to stop the blog and pay attention and if things don't change they will have the plug pulled. In the old days there must have been more drinking. Oh no.

It's a new day and I'm still not with it. It's Thursday and it will be Saturday night before I go back on my chemo pill. I can't begin to imagine what people went through without it. It makes you less of a judge about those who take things in their own hands. Every day I reach out to those suffering and their loved ones. Let God be their judge.

I wish I heard more from you all. Just a little note on the blog will go a long way in staying in touch with you. I care very much about you and its comforting just holding your hand. I guess that's why twitter is so poplar it keeps people more in touch and less isolated. I solution is almost evil unless practiced for the right reason. So many of the early saints went out into the desert to remain closer to God. It was in that environment that they got in touch with their inner selves and found meaning to their lives and to the place of others to theirs. God frequently spaces with a roar in the silence of one’s life. Today's monasteries provide environments that allow some to remain in touch with the sacrament of God's love, Himself.

Chloe is off to the doctor for a post operative follow up. With all the back and forth about her thyroids being cancerous and her needing the operation, we are extremely happy they found no cancer. We are so lucky. Her overnight in the hospital didn't allow enough time for rest. Since my sleep hours were late she'll have to go without me. I can dress myself except for my special stockings and shoes. We were saying last night that it's hard to believe how the stockings have helped. I was on the way to a great deal of disfigurement and the potential of problems with blockages in the legs. Wow, God has been so good to me. Cross your fingers, I start with my new doctor on July 7th after Cox's retirement at the end of this month. I'm a little anxious.

MultiCare has just finished a renewal and the addition of a new building which now houses oncology. Everything is on the same floor and quite spacious and beautiful. Many, I'm sure love the privacy and isolation of the new digs. However, we dislike it big time for the very same reason. We initial through the first few years spent as much as 50 to 75% of our time there each day and many days each week. Because of the openness and flow of the facilities we got to know and meet so many. We almost looked forward to our visits and made many friends.

I'll end with relating one side effect that was never diagnosed or treated while in the emergency room and hospital. In fact as I recall it was pain similar to that which first crippled me five years ago. No doubt about it, on a scale of 1 to 10, it was a 10. Incredible pain. It was located at the bottom of my spine. I don't know what brought it on or what made it go away. While in the hospital taking me to and from cat scans it was just incredible. Thank God I no longer have it or expect it to be past history.

I can’t tell you how strongly I reply upon your support, thoughts and prayers. Thanks.