Thanksgiving

Today will mark the end of my passivity. I’ve allowed myself to become passive and accepting of today and tomorrow. I’m going to give myself a different shot each day. I’m going to plan each day and those plans are going to be pro active. I’m going to rebuild this old body and attempt to remodel it into what it was meant to be. A fitting temple of the Holy Spirit. That is old catechism language, but I think language that befits my goals of today.

It’s a shame the way we treat Thanksgiving. I should really speak for myself, the way I treat Thanksgiving. Although, we share the feast with Canada, I like to think of it as particularly ours. It’s a feast made and fashioned for the needs of today. It was not founded in abundance, but rather in the poverty and hardships of the time. It seems sad if so many of us have been battered in ways we never thought possible. A security born from dedication and had work failed in delivering its promises. There are so many of us still unable to determine what hit us.

I’ll have to leave this blog to you individual experiences or I’ll be writing for days on end. I’m surrounded with reasons to be truly thankful. I’ll mention just a very few. My health care professionals have been incredibly helpful in my life. As our nation fights to fix a broken system, individuals within that system fight like super stars to bring a touch of love to all they serve. I’m thankful. My family and friends have never let me down. They have created a touchstone of comfort and warmth in which I am able to heal and grow.

Kris is a superstar. She awakes and goes to sleep each day spent. There is little left for herself after emptying every bit of goodness out for others. She is a model of wife, mother, child, spiritual being and just plain old fashioned goodness. It’s so good to see her recognized by all as one they would love to have as wife, mother, friend and companion. Her marvels are many and her goodness sublime.

Finally, I’m thankful for today and this moment as I remember and recall a life filled with gifts. I’m regretful, but find it less productive than love. I’m going to try and make this a love filled day for those around me. I’m going to try and make a difference by being different.

Hang in there.

Post Celebration

Those days come and go so fast. That moment of celebration with a modicum of success since cancer first into my life. I wanted a day to thank all who had made that day possible. It was a great day and all played a part in making it happen. Boy, so much to be thankful for and even more once it had come and gone.

No sooner had I made a firm resolution to become less of a burden than I fell flat on my face. It's been overwhelming to recall all that others have done for me. I couldn't begin to think of expecting them to hang on with me through another few years. I wanted to release them from the terrible burden giving so much of their lives to me. How could I continue you to allow them always to put me so high on their calendar of events. As I said above, no sooner had I made a resolution of less dependence than I found myself at Allenmore Hospital here in Tacoma. Several trips to the emergency room and one very intense visit to my specialist and tests galore, out comes the Gall Bladder. It was double in size and had infected a great deal of other parts of the intestine and stomach. However, it's all over, started on Monday and today is friday. I was home the first day and could have been out and about by Wednesday. Everything is under control and all is well.

Now, what do I do? How do I go about being less of a burden on others. I really don't know, but I honestly want to give it a try and become more of a giver than a taker. In all humility, I'll continue to say thank you, but more an more try to change my ways.